resep ngembang

katanya sehari manusia membutuhkan sedikitnya empat pelukan agar bisa berkembang.
kayanya dalam setahun aku cuman menerima yaaahhh kurang lebih 11 pelukan, dua di antaranya tulus diberikan.. sisanya karena aku todong.
ini artinya aku mengalami defisit pelukan sebanyak (4x365)-11 pelukan = 1449 pelukan
di mana ya pelukan-pelukan ditebarkan?
aku butuh benihnya !

X & Y

What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.

What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong

What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath try to hold it inside
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooh, that's right

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take

What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life.
That you don't want me there by your side.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath try to hold it inside
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh, that's right
Oooh
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath try to hold it inside
Oooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh, that's right

what if by coldplay

home is there to be found

11th peanut garden 521
adalah rumah susun sederhana
walau perabotnya cukup lengkap :p
saat pertama menjejakkan kaki ke dalam
angan membayang sobat berkunjung
tidak terlalu jauh dari mana-mana
cukup mudah dicapai
suasana nyaman untuk bertukar cerita

namun 455 hari berlalu
dan masih banyak akan menyingsing
dengan jumlah hidung yang bisa dihitung
hanya dengan sebelah tangan
sedih mulai merembes dan cilukbah
kecewa selalu mengejutkan
ada yang salah kah?

kamis jumat sabtu minggu
termangu tergolek sakit sendiri
dalam ruang merajut bisu
tivi meletup radio brisik sunyi
hanya da vinci code temani

jumat sabtu minggu
saat malam mengintip
gulang guling gelisah
di hijau bersama sapi
ya ampun @!*gue ini sakit
napa kok ga bisa lelap !#@

senin subuh hampir pukul 5
kuregang badan penat ini
mengungkit pintu geser yang ogah
angin semilir subuh menerobos masuk
hhhhhhmm...
sejuknya damai
perlahan menyelusup ke seluruh pori
rasa ini tak terkatakan

kembali ke tumpukan
balikkan badan peluk guling
rebah dalam lelapku
home is there to be found
and finally
i know where it is

buat pengunjung yang sudah absen
makasih ya
paling enggak aku sudah sempat nyuguhi kopi
sering-sering aja
kopiku banyak kok

acung tangan

beberapa hari yang lalu
dari cakapcakap dengan seorang teman
tak kusangka blogku
(yang isinya kebanyakan hanya lirik lagu dan ungkapan rasa negatif)
ternyata banyak juga yang rajin mengunjunginya
ah mungkin kalian cuman pengen tahu kabar terbaruku aja
tapi males denger keluhkesahku secara langsung
atau hidupku emang selalu mencengangkan
jadi daripada sakit jantung mendadak
mending curi start.. cari info dari blog

aku jadi pengen ngabsen
ayo acungkan jarimu..
pengunjung blog ini
sayah mo hitung
dengan jarijari sayah
1..2..3...

Nothing I Do

We were so drunk last night,
We had that stupid fight,
You called me a useless selfish prick,
So I'm in a fix right now,
And we'll measure the truth somehow,
love is a funny thing to me,
then you stormed out and grabbed your coat,
while slamming shut the door,
a ruthless move so cold you left your keys inside the door Oh...

Can Nothing i do make you happy anymore,
nothin' i say put a smile onto your face,
can nothing i say bring us back together,
nothing i do put a smile onto your face.

Well Okay..

Next day i called you back,
and you called me a stupid twat,
and then you were crying on the phone,
you sounded so upset,
you said,i wasn't the man you'd met
3 years and 7 months ago

i pleaded with her take me back,
i'll change my sorry way
sso tell me why mysteriously im annoyed instead of shamed
Ohhh

Can Nothing i do make you happy anymore,
Can nothin' i say put a smile onto your face
nothing i do bring us back together
nothing i say put a smile onto your face

MMmmmm, Yeahhh
Im poundering it all after that call
i think it is clear
i am here, you're from another stratosphere
Oh, now all the things she said they went around my head
and come out my ear,
and not before long,
this stubborn soul thinks he's done no wrong.
As when the questions flutter 'round my head like butterflies,
my head spins at reflecting on another love's demise, Ohhhh

Can Nothing i do make you happy anymore,
nothin' i say put a smile onto your face
can nothing i do bring us back together
nothing i say put a smile onto your face,
Ohhh

Jamie Cullum at Sydney
10 04 06

I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have climbed highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips
Felt my healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well, yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

stress

balik ke tempat yg sucks
baru awal minggu ..
sudah terasa menyesakkan
try to keep the lights up
dont' know for how long

first step

tonight i go to sydney
i'm so excited
a dream comes true
a mark on my journey

"Feel"

Here it comes again
Like the first time again
I cant sleep
I watch the rain
But im happy again
How can this be
Why did this feeling
Creep on up on me
I cant be sure
You never can
But the signs i know
Where does it come from
Where does it go
Why does it kill you
Painful and slow
Im out of the fire
Im into your home
I wanna feel you feel you feel you
Feel you again
It makes you a cheat
It makes you a liar
Step out of the fire
It gives a spring in the step
Smile on the face
Sing like a bird
Ya running the race again
What makes you bad
Makes you feel much better
Than you ever can
You cant touch it see it breathe it
Feel its all you can
It makes the world go round
It makes you homeward bound
It makes you want it more
You look around every corner
To see if theres more around
You wanna take it all its never quite enough
You know ya need it all
You wanna feel it feel it feel it feel it again
It'll kill you in the end
But not to have it
You havent lived
It will break you
Make you
Take you
Hate you again
From me to you
From you to me
Look out your window
And you will feel it feel it feel it feel it more
Here it comes again
That feeling again
I cant sleep
Sit and watch the rain
Again watch the rain
Again

stereophonics

entah mengapa

entah mengapa aku begitu sedih
tiap kali engkau bercanda ria dengan tmn2 yg lain
entah mengapa aku mrasa sendiri
tiap kali engkau karaoke dengan tmn2 yg lain
entah mengapa aku resah di hati
tiap kali engkau makan bersama dengan tmn2 yg lain
entah mengapa ketika kau seakan acuh denganku
hari terasa sangat sepi

aku cuma pengen kamu lbh dekat denganku
kaya dulu waktu kita pertama baru kenal
apa aku kehilangan satu temanku lagi?

burnt

u know what
i miss u ...
so much
till i'm upset
and burn my self

to the end

i've learned ...
that life is like a roll of paper.
the closer it gets to the end,
the faster it goes.

maybe it's an end
happening...
too fast...
and all
and all
be prepared for a legacy

ah masa?

seseorang
yang baru ketemu
bilang:
aku cantik
aku sexy
ora genit
face tiongkok
tampang toa pan (bos besar)
hokinya bagus

ah masa?

"Welcome To Wherever You Are"

Maybe we're different, but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden, running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyones a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different
Just take a look around

Be who you want to, be who you are
Everyones a hero, everyones a star

When you wanna give up, and your hearts about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes

BON JOVI LYRICS

pathetic

kacamataku
resapi
kata
asumsi
kaki
cemburu
buta

kuas

aku selalu membawa kuasku
kemanapun aku pergi
kalau-kalau aku perlu menutupi
agar tak terlihat diriku yang asli

aku sangat takut memperlihatkan diriku
takut dengan apa yang akan kau perbuat
takut kau akan tertatwa atau mengejekkku
aku takut kehilangan dirimu

aku ingin melepaskan semua lapisan catku
menunjukkan diriku yang asli dan nyata
tapi aku ingin kau mencoba mengerti
aku perlu kau menerima apa yang kau lihat

jadi kalau kau bersabar dan menutup mata
akan kutanggalkan semua lapisanku perlahan
tolonglah mengerti betapa sakitnya
membiarkan diriku yang asli terlihat

sekarang semua lapisanku sudah terlepas
aku merasa telanjang dan kendinginan
dan kalau kau masih mencintaiku apa adanya
kau adalah temanku, semurni emas

tapi aku perlu menyimpan kuasku
dan memegangnya dalam tanganku
aku ingin kuas itu siap kupakai
kalau kalau ada yang tidak mengerti

jadi lindungilah aku kawan
dan terima kasih atas ketulusan kasihmu
tapi biarkanlah aku menyimpan kuasku
sampai aku juga mencintai diriku

Bettie B Youngs

And don't expect too much, okay?

Light House

Watch the children sing, but not to be singers
And so hopeful, they still are believers
There's so much to do or say without repeating
And a sad story hoped she would keep reading
Maybe a message or just not perceiving
There's so much to do or say without repeating
So why don't we?
And don't expect too much, okay?
Cause the best, the worst might have passed anyway
And like the light house we watched it spin 'round and 'round
There's just some things
They aren't meant to touch the ground

Bada ba bada ba bada bum bum...

And let our legs just run, no concept of distance
And all these rules we've learned could make no difference
There's so much to do or say without repeating
And it's the subtle laugh that will keep ringing
And what was overlooked could now have meaning
There's so much to do or say without repeating
So why don't we?

And don't expect too much, okay?
Cause the best, the worst might have passed anyway
And like the light house we watched it spin 'round and 'round
There's just some things
They aren't meant to touch the ground

Bada ba bada ba bada bum bum...

maria taylor's song

pembela kebenaran

teringat masa kecil
ketika melihat ada temen nyontek waktu ulangan
aku berkata padanya..
eh gak boleh nyontek
dan kemudian aku melihat nyontek maupun tak nyontek
mereka tetap lulus

terhadang masalah kini
ketika ada hal-hal yg tidak seharusnya
aku kembali berkata..
ini seharusnya gak boleh begini
dan kemudian aku melihat seharusnya maupun tak seharusnya
semua bisa dibenarkan

jadi tak perlu repotkah
kita bersusah payah jadi pembela kebenaran?

gigi bungsu

stelah kmaren lusa
hampir gak bisa tidur
pipi bengkak
kemaren ke dokter gigi
tanpa babibu
dokter bilang suntik dulu
hwaduh!
ga pernah disuntik di mulut
langsung mengkeret.. takut!
tapi alat-alat suntik sudah disiapkan
2 ampul kata dokter
mata mulai merem
pengen nangis tapi malu
dan mulai lah si istri menyuntik
satu... dua ...
si anak ikut menyuntik
tiga.. empat.. emmm
dokter berkata sesuatu
tapi kuping sudah tidak menyimaknya
sibuk mengaduh dan
hwaduhhh!!
si bungsu mulai ditariktarik
kekiri.. ke kanan..
arrrgggghhhh!!
dokter bilang dirotasi dulu?
hah apa itu ?
pengen pingsan..
napa gue gak pingsan2
ketika akhirnya berhasil dicabut
mereka membawanya ke lampu
dan terlihat begitu mengerikan
berlumuran darah dan airmata
akarnya 3, yang satu melengkung
yg dua sdh tumpul sebagian terkena abses
itu yg bikin gusi dan pipi bengkak
dan aku meringis kesakitan
menahan tawa
membayangkan pipiku yg peyang gak simetris
seperti pipi sinchan
pantes saja orangorang melihatku dgn mata seperti itu..

andaikan kau bisa kucabut dari hatiku seperti gigibungsuku ini
beberapa suntikan utk membuat hatiku matirasa
kemudian tang, untuk mencabut sampai ke akar
kapas dan suntik, untuk menyedot abis nanah yang menggerogoti akarmu di hatiku
kemudian dua jahitan untuk menahan darahnya
memang ada bekasnya
tapi rasa sakitnya akan berakhir
berakhir ...

my blog color

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?